slave found a weekend job, now all that she has to do is find another one for the week. This seems to be taking forever trying to get Master up here...
The past few days slave has been so off. It must sound silly to all of those who are strong enough to be away from their Masters or slaves for long periods of time but, slave is used to being around Master all the time. slave usually spends all her time with Him, and T/they have even worked together for almost 2 years now.
slave feels wrong, part of her is missing and she is but a hollow version of herself with a smile like a mask upon her face. she cant even enjoy the fact that she is finally back in Alaska because the rest of her isn't here. Though the time that slave gets to spend with her family here is nice and they have had some fun, it's just been a quick distraction here and there.
It is taking all of slaves discipline to keep a semi hopeful attitude when all that she wants to do is just lay down and cry...
Reminding herself over and over that the better she does the faster this ends, and the few times that she gets to hear Masters voice keep her struggling on.
Missing You Master...
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Lost on autopilot
slave feels so lost. Friday will be a week that she has been away from Master, and she's VERY far away. Alaska couldn’t be much further from Him. Once slave has found a job Master will be up here to get a job as well, but it’s already taking too long....
Everything feels surreal, like she should have woken up in Masters arms already but the dream keeps dragging on relentlessly. Doing everything that she can and yet she feels like there MUST be something else that slave can be doing better, she is very anxious that she is missing something. Whenever she runs out of papers to fill out or people to call and has a lull in her progress, slave does her everyday tasks on autopilot. Feed Masters property, wash the dirty laundry so she has clothes to wear, tidy up the kitchen to help out, clean up any messes that slave makes as she goes, take out dinner...
Then her day brightens when she gets to do the workout that Master had written for her, she is no longer anxious or... kinda lost. Master has given her a task in His absence and she knows where she is supposed to be and what she is to be doing.
Then, feeling a bit less strained, slave returns to searching for a job.
After five the family arrives home to a warm dinner and slave enjoys finally getting to spend some time with them. Talking and staying occupied also helps her.
Later Master calls and it is the highlight of her day. slave gets to hear His voice as He talks about His day and how He had to search for this or that. *Awwww Master misses her*
Then slave tells Him what she did for the day and, when T/they are finished and listening to each other breath Master softly tells slave that He misses her. slaves heart overflows all bittersweet and she replies that she misses Him too, though her throat is so tight she can barely speak.
Simply put, This sucks!
slave is very greatful to have this oppertunity to serve Master it's just the being away from Him part thats so awful. Hopefully that will end for good soon.
As the day draws to an end, slave tries not to think about being here alone. Then she takes out the piece of paper with Masters handwritten notes for her nighttime ritual. Then things don't seem quite so bad.
Everything feels surreal, like she should have woken up in Masters arms already but the dream keeps dragging on relentlessly. Doing everything that she can and yet she feels like there MUST be something else that slave can be doing better, she is very anxious that she is missing something. Whenever she runs out of papers to fill out or people to call and has a lull in her progress, slave does her everyday tasks on autopilot. Feed Masters property, wash the dirty laundry so she has clothes to wear, tidy up the kitchen to help out, clean up any messes that slave makes as she goes, take out dinner...
Then her day brightens when she gets to do the workout that Master had written for her, she is no longer anxious or... kinda lost. Master has given her a task in His absence and she knows where she is supposed to be and what she is to be doing.
Then, feeling a bit less strained, slave returns to searching for a job.
After five the family arrives home to a warm dinner and slave enjoys finally getting to spend some time with them. Talking and staying occupied also helps her.
Later Master calls and it is the highlight of her day. slave gets to hear His voice as He talks about His day and how He had to search for this or that. *Awwww Master misses her*
Then slave tells Him what she did for the day and, when T/they are finished and listening to each other breath Master softly tells slave that He misses her. slaves heart overflows all bittersweet and she replies that she misses Him too, though her throat is so tight she can barely speak.
Simply put, This sucks!
slave is very greatful to have this oppertunity to serve Master it's just the being away from Him part thats so awful. Hopefully that will end for good soon.
As the day draws to an end, slave tries not to think about being here alone. Then she takes out the piece of paper with Masters handwritten notes for her nighttime ritual. Then things don't seem quite so bad.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Last night...
This is the last night slave will sleep in Masters cage.
W/we will be moving in the next couple of months and the cage is not making the trip *sad slave*. Master is sending slave on ahead to get a job while He works down here until He can join her, then bring the whole crew once Master has found a house.
slave still has a few days to go yet before she has to leave Masters side (thankfully) but she has to take apart the cage in the morning and she's really going to miss it. Master says that once everything is settled T/they will build Him another so slave is thankful for that...
*sniffle*
W/we will be moving in the next couple of months and the cage is not making the trip *sad slave*. Master is sending slave on ahead to get a job while He works down here until He can join her, then bring the whole crew once Master has found a house.
slave still has a few days to go yet before she has to leave Masters side (thankfully) but she has to take apart the cage in the morning and she's really going to miss it. Master says that once everything is settled T/they will build Him another so slave is thankful for that...
*sniffle*
Friday, September 4, 2009
"Fluffy"
Master inflicted on slave with a new toy the other day.
Master told slave to gather three implements, so she brought the tangerine root 'cane' that she carved, a black metal holey garage door piece and... slave brought some thick fuzzy rope that she had been dragging around as implement number three. When slave presented them she asked if it counted and waited for Masters decision.
As she had hoped, after a few moments of consideration Master went to work and quickly created what He named, Fluffy!
Now Fluffy was fun. Master inflicted on slave with the knotted rope that fell such a delightful way and had slave yelp in pain pretty quickly, until....
Master decided to imitate Stitch (the blue Disney alien) and go on about how He "Likes Fluffy!"
Oh gosh.
slave was giggling and yelping and soon had tears streaming down her face. All the while where Master had cut the rope Fluffy 'shedded' little bits of... fluff all over T/them and the floor. It was great.
Guess what? slave likes fluffy too.
Master told slave to gather three implements, so she brought the tangerine root 'cane' that she carved, a black metal holey garage door piece and... slave brought some thick fuzzy rope that she had been dragging around as implement number three. When slave presented them she asked if it counted and waited for Masters decision.
As she had hoped, after a few moments of consideration Master went to work and quickly created what He named, Fluffy!
Now Fluffy was fun. Master inflicted on slave with the knotted rope that fell such a delightful way and had slave yelp in pain pretty quickly, until....
Master decided to imitate Stitch (the blue Disney alien) and go on about how He "Likes Fluffy!"
Oh gosh.
slave was giggling and yelping and soon had tears streaming down her face. All the while where Master had cut the rope Fluffy 'shedded' little bits of... fluff all over T/them and the floor. It was great.
Guess what? slave likes fluffy too.
Friday, July 24, 2009
A household shift
Last night Master announced that He had decided to 're-consider' n. He told w and slave that He was leaving it up to them to handle as they wished but, He would prefer that they give her a bit of a hard time.
Master knew that slave would naturally lean towards being helpful and sweet, controlling the other side of herself. Well, of course now that Master wishes slave to be hard on n slave almost has to be *devious grin*. slaves little sadistic side is laughing and dancing a jig awaiting an opportune moment to be free...
Obviously slave wants n to do well because Master has decided to give her another chance. Though He has made it clear that He wants no sign of her old 'sammy' tricks - lying, manipulating, having a nasty attitude etc. Hopefully the girls making it hard on her will bring those things to light if she hasn't changed, though shes been here a little while as a roommate and she hasn't done too bad.
So, slave has some ideas of her own but would love input from anyone that wants to give it. What do you think slave should do to help Master make sure that n will behave this time?
Overall this is going to be interesting. slave of course has a few little things that bother her a touch, like the fact that she isn't the only one that Master snaps for now. Jumping to attention, ready to serve is a little disappointing when Master is looking the other way but, slave will get used to it. she just hopes that Master is as happy as He can be and she is eager to do anything she can to make sure that that happens.
Master knew that slave would naturally lean towards being helpful and sweet, controlling the other side of herself. Well, of course now that Master wishes slave to be hard on n slave almost has to be *devious grin*. slaves little sadistic side is laughing and dancing a jig awaiting an opportune moment to be free...
Obviously slave wants n to do well because Master has decided to give her another chance. Though He has made it clear that He wants no sign of her old 'sammy' tricks - lying, manipulating, having a nasty attitude etc. Hopefully the girls making it hard on her will bring those things to light if she hasn't changed, though shes been here a little while as a roommate and she hasn't done too bad.
So, slave has some ideas of her own but would love input from anyone that wants to give it. What do you think slave should do to help Master make sure that n will behave this time?
Overall this is going to be interesting. slave of course has a few little things that bother her a touch, like the fact that she isn't the only one that Master snaps for now. Jumping to attention, ready to serve is a little disappointing when Master is looking the other way but, slave will get used to it. she just hopes that Master is as happy as He can be and she is eager to do anything she can to make sure that that happens.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
The great outdoors
Master has decided to go camping this summer while T/they have the time. slave is so very excited because she loves those types of things. He plans to camp in a fairly remote 'primitive camping' area and bring the kayaks since its beside a small waterway/river. slave is bringing all the poles and tackle and Master is going to show her how to make a trout line and frog gig. slave has also drug out the Army survival manual and has been thinking about making a net that she saw instructions for while studying it.
There shouldn't be any people around since it's so secluded... Oh the ideas swimming in slaves mind for all sorts of rough, dirty fun!
Aside from slaves constant focus on sex *emberassed smile* it will be nice to fish, hike and hang out outside of the house for a while.
There shouldn't be any people around since it's so secluded... Oh the ideas swimming in slaves mind for all sorts of rough, dirty fun!
Aside from slaves constant focus on sex *emberassed smile* it will be nice to fish, hike and hang out outside of the house for a while.
The economy, jobs, and other parts of life...
slave is wondering what happens next.
The last job that was so great was nice enough to lay Master and slave off just two days before the contract became binding for a year. *sigh*
Well, to be fair Master and slave did complete all the projects they wanted done, Master is just such a hard worker.
With the economy the way it is it's been hard to find a new job, even at a fast food restaurant.
Master and slave have a wide range of skills between T/them so the lack of ANY jobs down here is a little unnerving.
Master is trying to avoid having to go on the truck again because He's tired of not being home.
slave is worried that the only other option will be her going to Alaska to work there. Not that she doesn't love it there but she hates being away from Master, though she would happily go if He wished.
slave has really been enjoying all the relaxing time with Master though and loves being at His foot all the time. It has been a lovely break with Him and slave will miss it when T/they do find something.
The last job that was so great was nice enough to lay Master and slave off just two days before the contract became binding for a year. *sigh*
Well, to be fair Master and slave did complete all the projects they wanted done, Master is just such a hard worker.
With the economy the way it is it's been hard to find a new job, even at a fast food restaurant.
Master and slave have a wide range of skills between T/them so the lack of ANY jobs down here is a little unnerving.
Master is trying to avoid having to go on the truck again because He's tired of not being home.
slave is worried that the only other option will be her going to Alaska to work there. Not that she doesn't love it there but she hates being away from Master, though she would happily go if He wished.
slave has really been enjoying all the relaxing time with Master though and loves being at His foot all the time. It has been a lovely break with Him and slave will miss it when T/they do find something.
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