Mmm the sweetness of infliction

Master beat slave the day before yesterday *happy sigh*, she feels so much better now.
Master says that she has her 'perma grin' back *laugh* she feels like it.


Master used random implements from around the house to bring slave to tears, it was much needed and she loved it.
After reducing slave to a sniffling mess Master bent her over and stuffed His super hard cock into her wet pussy, thrusting into her He soon filled her with a hot load. Ah, the utter perfection of being a 'creme filled slave', *laugh* it aways makes her think of Twinkies.


W/we played in the mud today and afterwards came home to have crawdads, fried catfish, shrimp scampi and leftover green bean casserole for dinner, what a great meal! A regular swamp feast :).

Copper wire and seams

Have Y/you ever played with copper wire? Once its stripped bare its a beautiful thing, varying shades of brassy gold.
 slave likes to play with jewelry ideas and twist it into shapes, though after a few twists it tries to bind and becomes hard to mold.
Recent events have this slaves insides bound uncomfortably. When speaking to Master about her feelings by the bonfire slave mentioned that her insides were in knots but, upon further reflection slave feels that it is closer to twists of wire...

Emotions, like bare wire are beautiful  things, though can easily become a bothersome twisty mess.
All of the recent events coupled with this slaves attempts to be strong for Master have her a ball of weirdly bound feelings.

Things are hard right now with all of the sad things taking place...
Alaska almost worked but didn't.
Master and w had to split.
Masters mom had a couple of strokes and He can't get to her to visit.
Two days ago Masters sister lost her baby at 36 weeks..... the one W/we are staying with. Its so sad just happy that W/we are here to help her if she needs it....
this slave wishes she could help more

*sigh*

Through all of this slave dares to mention her feelings, she feels selfish. Though after a few weeks of hiding them to help others she is all knotted now.

It helps to mindlessly blog and get these thoughts out so she can better serve Master with a clearer mind and help the family better when not so focused on her herself....

 Just everything inside is that emotion that resembles being locked in a chest with one small seam to scream though when you wont survive without more room to expand your lungs for a louder scream to be heard with......

Just another kinda limbo

Being back in Florida means looking for work all over again, a necessary evil of life...

This time though since the house split Master and slave are living in another town and are out of the city *happy dance* and another plus is how close the ocean is...

In another sort of limbo though, staying with family until one of U/us has a steady income for rent since Master let w have the house.
So will keep updating and will hopefully have a place again within a month. Maybe this time W/we wont have to start all over again.

Master did 'creme fill' slave in the shower today, and it was really hot Thank You Master!

What an INSANE month!

Wow. Things have been really crazy since this slaves last blog post, like REALLY just...wow.
Master and slave were working in Alaska and were about a month away from finally getting the family up there and having His house as it should be, Master had even had a beautiful 6 bedroom house set up for the next month. Then, He got a call.


Seems like everything exploded down in Florida and the situation had become unmanageable for w so, slave purchased the tickets for Master for Him and her to fly down immediately. Since it was such short notice it was way more than it should have and depleted the moving fund almost entirely.
slave was very ill, extremely ill while packing up the apartment in 2 days. she had such a high fever that she was delirious for most of it and doesn't even remember the two nights of Master bathing her with ice cold rags to bring her temperature down.
Unfortunately Master had to do did most of the packing, and the little that slave did was unorganized and practically useless.


When T/they arrived it took Master about a week and a half to get everything sorted out and all the problems corrected, the money and time it would take to get back to work was a stretch and Alaska became no more than a dream.
So Master organized life in Florida, improving and adjusting to make life wonderful as He always does, and THEN.......


Remember when this slave spoke of n coming back into the house around two years ago now? What a manipulative, and unbalanced person she had been, causing her removal from the house the first time? Well, it turns out that she had been sowing seeds since O/our departure to get w all to herself again like it was before Master.
*sigh* For lack of a better term the shit hit the fan 2 days ago, n finally got it right.
she messed things up so bad and put a huge wrench in everything so that now, Master and w can't even be together anymore. The details really don't matter much, the end result is the same.


So suddenly Master and slave are almost alone now, for real this time, slave feels so bad for Him. All that work and time away to make things better for His house and it was all for nothing....
What a horrible few weeks.

A dawning duh moment

Yesterday it dawned on slave for the first time that she is the only skinny 'girlfriend' that Master has ever had, He usually wont settle for less than a chunky girl. It's not like slave didn't know that Master usually dated big girls, she just figured that somewhere in His past there was at least one skinny (average really, skinny just means not chunky) girl.

slave doesn't count flings, one night stands or a here and there fuckbuddy. Master is a really big slut as is slave, and no it's not a bad thing, just a fact. But those numbers don't end up in the girlfriend pool.

It was just a 'wow' moment. she feels privileged that Master liked her enough to see past her size but, it also makes her stop for a moment.

she really thought about it when she saw pictures of one of Masters exes, from the way He had talked about her and the stories told before slave had just assumed she was at least in the 'skinny bitch/bones' category that this slave is in (the former cheerleader probably had a part in that assumption but, was apparently before He met her). Well, nope.

It just make her feel this odd mix of special, grateful, and a little self conscious.

Sometimes it's still a little hard to be 'the skinny bitch' when slave thinks about it, sounds kinda funny huh?

Just a little bite...

Master bit slave the night before last, just a playful nip when she jumped into His lap to rub on His cock. Feeling His teeth sink into her shoulder hard enough to hurt made her gasp.
slave forgot what she was doing and her mind slipped, relishing the pain that was so sweet, craving Masters infliction a tear slid down her cheek when He pulled away. Master saw, understood, and smiled at her.

"Undress slave" Master told her after taking slave to the bedroom. she quickly obeyed and eyed Him as He picked up fluffy and grinned at her. "Do you remember what heavy, knotted rope feels like slave?" Master asked with His devious look. "Not really Master" slave replied getting a little nervous.

this slave always gets a little afraid before a scene. she wants Master to hurt her, she needs Master to hurt her but, it still scares her a little. That's good. Fear turns her on, even if it's hers. she gets nervous and trembles a little, Master likes that. The more eager and anxious slave gets the wetter she gets so by the time she is in position bent over the bed with her elbows and hands correctly placed her pussy is soaked.

slave feels Master behind her, like He is more than just a man, His presence seems to fill the room and her skin prickles as the hair on the back of her neck stands up.
Waiting. Master keeps her waiting, wondering when He is going to strike... she trembles again then the tails of fluffy thwack against her ass.

It progressed as these things tend to do, Master doing all sorts of wonderfully horrible things to slave. More fluffy, cold ice on her red ass, the chain wrapped around her in a way that her legs were pulled open, the heavy end of the pool stick on her inner thighs, clothespins on her pussy, a slave jelly ball curled on Masters lap with mascara to her chin sniffling happily... you know how these things go *grin* it was lovely.

Master was getting ready for work this morning and He put slave up on the bathroom counter for a quickie. Pounding into her Master told slave to cum and then pulled out and shot His load all over slaves pussy *shiver* oh it was so HOT!
slave stayed dirty for a little bit before showering, she likes to be a little filthy. It was a great start to her day.

Awestruck

It's almost O/our fifth anniversary, goodness that was fast.

Thinking about how much slave's life has changed because of Master brings tears to her eyes.
Watching awestruck as Master relaxes after a long day at work and slaves heart feels like it will burst with love.
This life that He has given her is everything that she could have hoped, and so much more.
Chained to His bed at night, Masters powerful arms wrapped around her, holding His slaves small wrists tightly to her chest as He squeezes her to Him in His sleep.
Kneeling before Him as Master speaks to slave about discipline, His day, what she should be mindful of or how proud Master is of something.
At work, Master with her in every movement, slave does it all for Him and as well as He would have it done.
Just, everything.

How does one put into mere words this powerful feeling that sears through the veins? This passion and devotion and love that IS part of this slaves very soul?

Master has made her into His slave... Every breath, every beat of her heart, every thought, will forever be His.
her hazel eyes show the changed soul within as a knowing sparkle before downcast demurely.

Master, thank You, for everything.