Still here and still busy!

The past few times on the computer have been spent searching for information on becoming a better slave. she is working hard on self improvement, grace, discipline, attention to detail ... etc.
If anyone has a favorite website she would love to hear about it.

A quick update:
Master and slave recently got a new job, slave loves it. she is Masters assistant and the boss doesn't mind that slave always has on Masters collar.
T/they are very busy though but, life is good.

slave has a lovely dark purple bruise on her bottom from nine days ago! Since things have been so busy there has been little time for play... Master made a quick moment the other day.
He took slave out back in the dark and ordered her to present then beat her with a big stick.
Thank You Master!!!
It was so intense that slave had difficulty standing so Master allowed her to get down on all fours. Unfortunately slave knelt right in an ant pile because she moved forward of the place Master pointed at. she didn't even notice until after but, it was sooo very worth it!
That's today's news and slave will try to be on more *sheepish grin*

Back at home

Master and slave recently returned from a trip. Actually a drive all the way from central Florida to southeast Alaska.
It was wonderful!
slave was very privileged to get to spend so much time with Him as T/they drove 4,000 miles. T/they did so many fun things like kayaking and hiking. Master even took topless pictures of slave in Canada when He pulled over to let slave play in the woods. T/their two year anniversary was spent in a little inn on the side of 16 in Canada and it couldn't have been better.
slave showed Master as much as she could about the world that she loves so much though she seemed to amuse Him more than anything else with her bouncing joy. The best part of everything though was not the fresh, crisp air nor the whales and seals T/they watched feed, it wasn't even the perfect waterfall at the end of a hard, muddy hike. It was Master as He relaxed. Peaceful it seemed, even as He shook His head at an excited slave petting critter skins and collecting rocks*shy shrug*. Few worries are strong enough to hang on when the night in a city is quiet and you can see all the stars for miles, it was perfect. slave will cherish those memories forever.

Now home again more adjustments are being made, Master and w's last slave 'slave n' has moved back in to help w around the house. Which isn't terribly different because she was around for a while after this slave moved in though she left shortly after, they got along fine and worked well together. slave has no worries because her tasks are still her own, which is what matters to her aside from Masters happiness. The biggest change is that Master will be going back on the road next week.
Master hasn't yet decided if slave will join Him on the truck again or work here. slave is very anxious to know what will happen, she gets very distressed when away from Master and she is unable to serve Him but, she wants to help provide income as well. Of course Master knows best and will let slave know her job when He is ready though in the meantime slave is squirmy and uncertain inside. Trying so very hard to work on what she can as she waits, anticipating and dreading. Will Master be away with no one to see to His every need? Master does so much for so many He shouldn't have to make any sacrifices, it's just wrong....

Hard to understand...

Reading the blogs of other slave/pet/subbie's in her infrequent time on the computer slave is very surprised. It's hard for her to understand sometimes the way so many fight against themselves and their training. This slave makes many mistakes and has learned about some unwanted traits she has been changing within herself but, she is always eager to please Master.


slave hates it when she has an inappropriate thought of annoyance at a restriction or punishment and is always quick to banish it. slave is devastated to disappoint Master in any way and is always working on something, speech, posture, her walk, anything requiring discipline that Master has instructed her on. she does her best to always behave, learn and be the best slave that she can.


Don't think that she is weak in any way or that she can't make decisions, because she can. This slave is a very strong and resourceful woman who is also a good shot, loves to be outdoors, enjoys some lovely corny music and is a very determined little thing when somethings important to her. she gives Master her all and feels special when Master doe's things like take her out to eat, at any type of place and orders her food. He knows exactly what she likes and will usually allow her that. When slave gets peas or something a little against her taste, she knows that Master did it for some pleasure of His and that makes the torture worthwhile and enjoyable.



When she started feeling 'fluffy' (like a pet) here and there it took some sorting out. First she had to realize that Master was ok with and amused by it, and that it made her happy. Who cares about society's restrictions or being normal! If being a freak or weirdo means that this slave gets to be so perfectly happy, gets to feel more joy and love than she had even thought existed, well then what else can she say?


If the things that make this slave her are weird, freakish or offensive to you than go right ahead and call her your names. she'll just smile and think of being beaten to tears, choked on Masters cock, petted while told what a good slave she is and then curling up to sleep in the cage and chained at Masters side the night before, and giggle. her face will turn red, her pussy will squish and her heart will overflow with such love for her amazing Master. she'll look you dead in the eye and with pride and happiness say "why yes, i am a freak".


Don't ever let anyone make you feel ashamed of who you are.

New toys..

Master allowed slave to help Him build a cage the other day, pipe, wood and reinforced with re bar-it's VERY strong. He also built a dark box for w that is designed beautifully to allow air flow without any light, then made a handle for what He named Winston.

slave brought home this rubber strap piece from work that looked delightfully evil and presented it to Master while He was building things and asked for help making a handle that pleased Him. Master made a wooden handle then tested it's feel by striping slave's ass with a few strokes. He stopped quickly and eyed Winston, then slave, considering... and with a devious smile cut twin slits starting and ending an inch from each end.

slave cocked her head and gave Him a questioning look, slightly nervous since Winston had been evil the first time and wondered if she had been foolish to bring it home.

Master ordered slave into position and she quickly obeyed, growing a little scared. Master sensed that of course and paused just long enough for slave to start trembling fearfully then, brought the strap across her ass. slave barely had time to yelp before Master was steadily striping slave from knee's to shoulder's and she was quickly in tears, moaning and whimpering as her pussy dripped down her leg.

Within the first five strokes those slits allowed the strap to twist so that it was nothing but edges all twisted and harsh for every fall after that...

slave loved it! and hated it! It hurt! Painful, welting, cutting, vile, savage piece of construction junk! It's EVIL!

slave has a new favorite toy...

she happily sanded Winston's handle until it was fit for Masters hand, feeling her flaming flesh as she sat on the rough carpet.

Master has also changed slaves sleeping arrangement as well. No longer does she sleep beside His bed on a pallet, now she sleeps chained and caged.
Master leaves a bar out so that slave can crawl in and out as it pleases Him and when she is sent to bed, Master chains her to His bed through the bars.
slave can lay and sit when chained for bed, it's very restrictive, slave loves the new arrangement that Master has decided on.
It's getting late so slave will write more when she is allowed computer time again.
Is anyone still reading this? she doesn't post often...

Chandeliers and pincushions

Training, such a delightful thing.

Even more so when there is play involved *giggle*.

Master hung the swing beside His bed, almost above where slave sleeps on the pallet.

The other night He had slave fetch the clothespins then told her to climb up into the swing. Master adjusted her to His liking as slave spun just slightly, thinking of the last time she had been in the swing and enjoying Masters attentions, then she started falling. slave fell into that place, the one where the skin becomes so sensitive-touch, textures, heat, cold... The one where the mind slips downward into the super submissive place where there is nothing else but waiting to be of service. With nothing invading or disturbing the mind from her task, alert, anticipating, focused and ready, how lovely.

slave felt, really felt the rough fabric of the swing, she trembled when Masters fingers brushed against her skin. slave felt the hint of the chill breeze tickle across her body when the a/c kicked on and the heat of Master's breath as He leaned close. slave watched Him adoringly, focused so completely on what He was doing, His discipline amazing her.

With her height to His liking Master sat on the edge of the bed picking up the clothespins as He did, slave eyed them warily and Master flashed her a sadistic grin.

Master put them everywhere and handed some to w to place as well.

He was taking just long enough in between each, giving such pleased consideration to every one that slave would get nervous as He leaned forward to place them.

she enjoyed the little pains, knowing that they would only grow with time.

When He finished Master gave slave her drink so she could wet her mouth, then told slave not to spill it and to keep her legs apart as He removed them, then flicked one off. slave gave a surprised squeal and sloshed the drink, she had been expecting opening the clothespins to take them off, boy was she wrong!

After swatting a couple off of slave's body Master told her to pick each one she wanted off, one at a time. What torture! very bittersweet, slave alternated between the very painful and the not so much so she had time to regain some control of herself. slave strained to keep her legs open as tears streamed down her face, shaking with the effort of disciplining herself through the pain. she failed a few times and spilled some of the drink once, and each time Master would replace the most painful clothespin that had been removed.

By the time Master had finished slave was crying and quite relaxed, though He surprised slave again with His tongue against her tender pussy and she whimpered while arching closer. Enjoying the rare privilege that was both pleasure and pain *smile*.
Thank You Master

Fluffy moments

Last week Master was talking to slave and He ran His hand down her side absently. He gave slave an amused grin and she tilted her head with a questioning look. Master told slave that He liked the way that she responds to Him then pointed out what she had done that amused Him so. slave had arched her back and scratched her fingertips against His leg almost as if she was kneading Masters jeans like a cat.
Lately slave has had little 'pet personalities' showing more and more. slave has always had quite a few puppy tendencies *giggle* and has a nickname from Master to go with it but, the other traits are fairly recent. Master wrapped slave's hair like a little dressage pony and she had to suppress some matching moments throughout the workday. slave curled up between Masters feet and fell asleep while He was on the computer a few different times and even had a day when Master told her that she was curious george. slave was worried that she might bother Master somehow with those behaviors and approached Him about it but, Master calmed such fears. He told slave that He couldn't think of anything more relaxed or natural then her behaving in such a manner. slave is so lucky to be owned by one so wise and understanding.

Away from home

slave is away from home, she hasn't seen Master since yesterday morning and she already misses Him terribly. He has allowed slave to visit Alaska with her family, the place where she grew up and loves. slave is very thankful that Master has allowed her such a privilege and she will enjoy being there as much as she can without having Master there to share it with...
Being away from Masters side is a terrible thing for slave but, He will be taken care of in her absence so that is quite a comfort.

slave hasn't had the opportunity lately to be on the computer much so it's been quite a while since she has written. Master registered slave on the 25th of April! slave is so happy to have papers and a bar code and has been trying to figure out how to post the bar code on Masters blog.

Shower fun

Bathing Master. Soapy water glistening off of Masters skin as slave washes the days dirt from His body. Admiring, slave is surprised as His hand connects with cheek and slaves eyes fill with tears and she moans...
Like a bitch in heat she presses against Him and reaches for His cock eagerly, hoping He will allow it. "Did I tell you to stop washing Me slave?!" Master says, then emphasizes with another slap "Am I clean slave?" He demands more then asks. "No Master" slave replies as she resumes washing His body...
Master pushes slave to slave's knees and shoves His cock into slave's throat until she chokes. Gagging on His hard flesh cutting off the air she fights not to struggle, then loses to instinct and tries to get just a little breath but His handful of hair makes it impossible. Master pulls back slightly with a chuckle, allowing slave a few gasps before thrusting back in. The look on Masters face is savage and He growls when slave fights Him and looses as He uses His strength to help slave obey.she has tears running down makeup streaked cheeks and blood in a tender mouth. she is trembling as Master pulls slave off of His cock by the hair and looks at His drenched little slave and grins deviously. Knowing that slave is trembling out of eagerness and that His filthy little pain slut is aching for Him to slide Himself in slaves soaking pussy. Master releases His handful of hair, steps out of the shower and says "Don't keep Me waiting slave, I have use of you".
*happy sigh*... What more could a slave ask for after a long day at work?

A little catch up...

Master wore a wifebeater under His shirt on friday, slave loves sleeping with somthing that smells like Him. After work Master undressed to shower and tossed the shirt on the blanket that slave sleeps on. slave happily thanked Him, she really loves that privledge. It started back when He was away on the road all the time and slave curled up with His shirt when she missed Him. Master seems amused that His dirty shirts please slave so and very kindly continues to allow slave that.

The days have been filled with lots of ten hour workdays lately, nice but extremely tiring since most of it involves a shovel. Monday night was quite interesting though... *evil grin*. slave was polishing Masters boots in the bedroom and once she finished slave joined Master and w at the computer. w was stroking Masters cock (not uncommon) but, slave quickly realized that the webcam was brodcasting. After a few comments from the people watching, Master had His girls flash various body parts to the camera then had w suck His cock. Watching her do so slave was afraid that Master would have slave do the same and yet hoping that He would.
After a little bit Master told the girls to switch and slave wrapped her lips around Masters hard, thick cock eagerly. she loves the feel and taste of Him and she was quite excited by the fact that there were about 400 people watching-not that slave needs an excuse to get any wetter than she does...

Well, Master had the girls trade off a few time then shot His load on w's face. It was really hot and lots of fun...

Thoughts of a tired slave...

Worked overtime today, slave has become very well acquainted with the shovel the past three days. That's whats nice about work though, it's always different and she doesn't need to pay a gym...
Master has been torturing slave with once a week sex for a while now *whimper*.
she walks around soaking wet all day, every movement and slave remembers the seams...
As dirty minded as she is, everything reminds slave about sucking cock or fucking. Then she starts thinking, and she is very imaginative so she gets even wetter...
Any time slave manages to direct attention to other things Master is right there to brush against slave's skin, breath across the back of slave's neck or look at slave like He wants to tear off the clothes that agonize all those sensitive spots...
Every once in a while when slave has calmed down, Master gives slave a look. A direct stare that she quickly looks away from but, she almost has to watch Him. Masters posture shifts almost imperceptibly, though it's more than enough. slave's heart speeds up and the skin on slave's body tingles, a anticipatory kind of thrill as the lowly predator becomes the hunted one. Master walks towards slave like He is stalking His prey, slow and deliberate with a hunger in His eyes *moan*. she feels ever nerve come alive, waiting, watching, and slave just wants to fuck Him right there. Well, not that that is unusual, she always wants Him but that fires slave all up. she likes a little bit of fear, pain and blood with sex *giggle*
slave is happily worn out today, and looks forward to a restful night. After begging Master to let slave suck His cock of course, she has been thinking of it all day...

A moment to write...

slave has been working construction with Master, so she has been bringing home all sorts of interesting things *devious grin*.
she was cleaning up a site the other day and found a small strip of vinyl baseboard (sounds odd), and it caught slave's attention. Master says that before He uses anything He always tests it on His wrist first so He knows how it feels. So slave did so, and quickly asked the supervisor if she could have some scraps to bring home. she has started attempting to make a flogger *uncertain shrug* but it's going slow because she wants it perfect. Master saw the stash she had cut today and used one of the lashes for His flogger on slave. *moan* Vicious! it will be nice if she can put it together right, heavy like Master prefers, and thuddy with a hint of sting.... not for the faint of heart to be sure. slave also wants to cut one into thin strips for a lighter scene, hopefully it works.
Just a quick update in a slow moment...

It's really unrated?

Trying to get this thing started, it's a little difficult.
slave has been allowed a myspace until now and everything has had to be so very vanilla... Every writing pg-13 so that no one is 'offended' by the content of slave's life. Now that she can write openly, it's a little scary *smile*.
There is somthing perfect about life now, as Masters slave. she is where she belongs, where she was always meant to be, life is beautiful. The new eyes that came with setting foot into this world are still wide open with awe... The desire to be the best possible slave for Master burns inside slave with an ever growing flame... Nothing in this world will compare to the perfection of leaning against Masters knee as He strokes slave's hair after a day of work and service.
Sometimes she feels like such a lovestruck fool, adoring and worshipping but, then again thats quite appropriate. He is so amazing, so close to perfection, and every breath, every beat of slaves heart is His.

Saying hello

slave is a little shy about starting one of these... But she really wants to meet others who share this lifestyle that she can talk to.
slave has been in service since November 9th, 2006 and loves life. she is not allowed on the furniture except for the wooden chair she uses at the table or computer. she is not to wear underwear except with prior permission though she rarely asks :) and she sleeps on the floor beside Masters bed though sometimes she sleeps with Him and His alpha, 'w'. slave's makeup, clothes, lotion, etc. everything goes though Master, everything is to His liking as it should be.
slave loves sex, cock, cum, almost anything that has anything to do with fucking and sucking *giggle* she is a complete nympho and she is quite the pain slut as well.
Now that you know a little about slave things can get started.