Copper wire and seams

Have Y/you ever played with copper wire? Once its stripped bare its a beautiful thing, varying shades of brassy gold.
 slave likes to play with jewelry ideas and twist it into shapes, though after a few twists it tries to bind and becomes hard to mold.
Recent events have this slaves insides bound uncomfortably. When speaking to Master about her feelings by the bonfire slave mentioned that her insides were in knots but, upon further reflection slave feels that it is closer to twists of wire...

Emotions, like bare wire are beautiful  things, though can easily become a bothersome twisty mess.
All of the recent events coupled with this slaves attempts to be strong for Master have her a ball of weirdly bound feelings.

Things are hard right now with all of the sad things taking place...
Alaska almost worked but didn't.
Master and w had to split.
Masters mom had a couple of strokes and He can't get to her to visit.
Two days ago Masters sister lost her baby at 36 weeks..... the one W/we are staying with. Its so sad just happy that W/we are here to help her if she needs it....
this slave wishes she could help more

*sigh*

Through all of this slave dares to mention her feelings, she feels selfish. Though after a few weeks of hiding them to help others she is all knotted now.

It helps to mindlessly blog and get these thoughts out so she can better serve Master with a clearer mind and help the family better when not so focused on her herself....

 Just everything inside is that emotion that resembles being locked in a chest with one small seam to scream though when you wont survive without more room to expand your lungs for a louder scream to be heard with......