Poetry

This slave wishes to share some of her poetry.
It's nothing special just little pieces of her feelings and inspirations that found their way to random bits of paper..


The artist
He decorates His pale canvas with sure, swift strokes.
A Master of His trade, this artist.
Focused completely and entirely self disciplined,
His work is breathtaking.
Stripes of color in different patterns, some light, some dark.
Others lined neatly in a row, the rest crossed and intertwined.
They leave such an interesting impression.
Reds, bright crimson blood, burning like fire.
Blues, of the deepest, darkest ocean.
Purple, like a bruise, or a sweet ripe plum.
Yellow, wild dandelions in fields of green.
Sometimes if the dark mood strikes,
the almost black of a stormy night sky.
All of these He flows together seamlessly,
part practiced perfection, part gift.
He can create something beautiful, with just about anything.
No brushes or pencils touch His work,
He prefers to choose His own tools.
Few ever get to see this art, they just wouldn't understand.
For its still too far outside the norm.
Still He creates because it pleases Him, not for any type of recognition.
Contemplating His next design with a smile,
Master wields His implement with skill.
His swings land flawlessly to the cries of His slave,
and the appearing marks are exact.
A soothing hand to steady, on her trembling side.
The touch of His love tender and rough.
she leans into Him happily, breathing quickened, flushed.
And with a devious grin He draws back thinking,
"It was a dark and stormy night...".

Blond chicken

Yes, blond chicken.
W/we had chicken and veggie soup for dinner tonight, and Master showed slave how to pluck and clean a chicken. All thanks to the chicken that 'flew' over the neighbors chain link fence into the waiting jaws of his dog *laugh* very blond chicken, and yes it really was yellow.

Master was given the still warm bird by the neighbor who had no idea what to do with it, so He checked to make sure its insides were intact just like W/we had to do with the bunny last year.
Then He showed slave what to do, it was lots of fun and the bird was only bruised a little.
It tasted good though was a little tougher than usual because it was a 'yard bird' instead of one kept tender in a tiny cage like the ones you get from the store.

The whole thing was great, slave loves that kinda stuff! Thank You Master.

Mmm the sweetness of infliction

Master beat slave the day before yesterday *happy sigh*, she feels so much better now.
Master says that she has her 'perma grin' back *laugh* she feels like it.


Master used random implements from around the house to bring slave to tears, it was much needed and she loved it.
After reducing slave to a sniffling mess Master bent her over and stuffed His super hard cock into her wet pussy, thrusting into her He soon filled her with a hot load. Ah, the utter perfection of being a 'creme filled slave', *laugh* it aways makes her think of Twinkies.


W/we played in the mud today and afterwards came home to have crawdads, fried catfish, shrimp scampi and leftover green bean casserole for dinner, what a great meal! A regular swamp feast :).

Copper wire and seams

Have Y/you ever played with copper wire? Once its stripped bare its a beautiful thing, varying shades of brassy gold.
 slave likes to play with jewelry ideas and twist it into shapes, though after a few twists it tries to bind and becomes hard to mold.
Recent events have this slaves insides bound uncomfortably. When speaking to Master about her feelings by the bonfire slave mentioned that her insides were in knots but, upon further reflection slave feels that it is closer to twists of wire...

Emotions, like bare wire are beautiful  things, though can easily become a bothersome twisty mess.
All of the recent events coupled with this slaves attempts to be strong for Master have her a ball of weirdly bound feelings.

Things are hard right now with all of the sad things taking place...
Alaska almost worked but didn't.
Master and w had to split.
Masters mom had a couple of strokes and He can't get to her to visit.
Two days ago Masters sister lost her baby at 36 weeks..... the one W/we are staying with. Its so sad just happy that W/we are here to help her if she needs it....
this slave wishes she could help more

*sigh*

Through all of this slave dares to mention her feelings, she feels selfish. Though after a few weeks of hiding them to help others she is all knotted now.

It helps to mindlessly blog and get these thoughts out so she can better serve Master with a clearer mind and help the family better when not so focused on her herself....

 Just everything inside is that emotion that resembles being locked in a chest with one small seam to scream though when you wont survive without more room to expand your lungs for a louder scream to be heard with......

Just another kinda limbo

Being back in Florida means looking for work all over again, a necessary evil of life...

This time though since the house split Master and slave are living in another town and are out of the city *happy dance* and another plus is how close the ocean is...

In another sort of limbo though, staying with family until one of U/us has a steady income for rent since Master let w have the house.
So will keep updating and will hopefully have a place again within a month. Maybe this time W/we wont have to start all over again.

Master did 'creme fill' slave in the shower today, and it was really hot Thank You Master!

What an INSANE month!

Wow. Things have been really crazy since this slaves last blog post, like REALLY just...wow.
Master and slave were working in Alaska and were about a month away from finally getting the family up there and having His house as it should be, Master had even had a beautiful 6 bedroom house set up for the next month. Then, He got a call.


Seems like everything exploded down in Florida and the situation had become unmanageable for w so, slave purchased the tickets for Master for Him and her to fly down immediately. Since it was such short notice it was way more than it should have and depleted the moving fund almost entirely.
slave was very ill, extremely ill while packing up the apartment in 2 days. she had such a high fever that she was delirious for most of it and doesn't even remember the two nights of Master bathing her with ice cold rags to bring her temperature down.
Unfortunately Master had to do did most of the packing, and the little that slave did was unorganized and practically useless.


When T/they arrived it took Master about a week and a half to get everything sorted out and all the problems corrected, the money and time it would take to get back to work was a stretch and Alaska became no more than a dream.
So Master organized life in Florida, improving and adjusting to make life wonderful as He always does, and THEN.......


Remember when this slave spoke of n coming back into the house around two years ago now? What a manipulative, and unbalanced person she had been, causing her removal from the house the first time? Well, it turns out that she had been sowing seeds since O/our departure to get w all to herself again like it was before Master.
*sigh* For lack of a better term the shit hit the fan 2 days ago, n finally got it right.
she messed things up so bad and put a huge wrench in everything so that now, Master and w can't even be together anymore. The details really don't matter much, the end result is the same.


So suddenly Master and slave are almost alone now, for real this time, slave feels so bad for Him. All that work and time away to make things better for His house and it was all for nothing....
What a horrible few weeks.

A dawning duh moment

Yesterday it dawned on slave for the first time that she is the only skinny 'girlfriend' that Master has ever had, He usually wont settle for less than a chunky girl. It's not like slave didn't know that Master usually dated big girls, she just figured that somewhere in His past there was at least one skinny (average really, skinny just means not chunky) girl.

slave doesn't count flings, one night stands or a here and there fuckbuddy. Master is a really big slut as is slave, and no it's not a bad thing, just a fact. But those numbers don't end up in the girlfriend pool.

It was just a 'wow' moment. she feels privileged that Master liked her enough to see past her size but, it also makes her stop for a moment.

she really thought about it when she saw pictures of one of Masters exes, from the way He had talked about her and the stories told before slave had just assumed she was at least in the 'skinny bitch/bones' category that this slave is in (the former cheerleader probably had a part in that assumption but, was apparently before He met her). Well, nope.

It just make her feel this odd mix of special, grateful, and a little self conscious.

Sometimes it's still a little hard to be 'the skinny bitch' when slave thinks about it, sounds kinda funny huh?

Just a little bite...

Master bit slave the night before last, just a playful nip when she jumped into His lap to rub on His cock. Feeling His teeth sink into her shoulder hard enough to hurt made her gasp.
slave forgot what she was doing and her mind slipped, relishing the pain that was so sweet, craving Masters infliction a tear slid down her cheek when He pulled away. Master saw, understood, and smiled at her.

"Undress slave" Master told her after taking slave to the bedroom. she quickly obeyed and eyed Him as He picked up fluffy and grinned at her. "Do you remember what heavy, knotted rope feels like slave?" Master asked with His devious look. "Not really Master" slave replied getting a little nervous.

this slave always gets a little afraid before a scene. she wants Master to hurt her, she needs Master to hurt her but, it still scares her a little. That's good. Fear turns her on, even if it's hers. she gets nervous and trembles a little, Master likes that. The more eager and anxious slave gets the wetter she gets so by the time she is in position bent over the bed with her elbows and hands correctly placed her pussy is soaked.

slave feels Master behind her, like He is more than just a man, His presence seems to fill the room and her skin prickles as the hair on the back of her neck stands up.
Waiting. Master keeps her waiting, wondering when He is going to strike... she trembles again then the tails of fluffy thwack against her ass.

It progressed as these things tend to do, Master doing all sorts of wonderfully horrible things to slave. More fluffy, cold ice on her red ass, the chain wrapped around her in a way that her legs were pulled open, the heavy end of the pool stick on her inner thighs, clothespins on her pussy, a slave jelly ball curled on Masters lap with mascara to her chin sniffling happily... you know how these things go *grin* it was lovely.

Master was getting ready for work this morning and He put slave up on the bathroom counter for a quickie. Pounding into her Master told slave to cum and then pulled out and shot His load all over slaves pussy *shiver* oh it was so HOT!
slave stayed dirty for a little bit before showering, she likes to be a little filthy. It was a great start to her day.

Awestruck

It's almost O/our fifth anniversary, goodness that was fast.

Thinking about how much slave's life has changed because of Master brings tears to her eyes.
Watching awestruck as Master relaxes after a long day at work and slaves heart feels like it will burst with love.
This life that He has given her is everything that she could have hoped, and so much more.
Chained to His bed at night, Masters powerful arms wrapped around her, holding His slaves small wrists tightly to her chest as He squeezes her to Him in His sleep.
Kneeling before Him as Master speaks to slave about discipline, His day, what she should be mindful of or how proud Master is of something.
At work, Master with her in every movement, slave does it all for Him and as well as He would have it done.
Just, everything.

How does one put into mere words this powerful feeling that sears through the veins? This passion and devotion and love that IS part of this slaves very soul?

Master has made her into His slave... Every breath, every beat of her heart, every thought, will forever be His.
her hazel eyes show the changed soul within as a knowing sparkle before downcast demurely.

Master, thank You, for everything.

Random talks with Master

Master and slave were talking yesterday about Master acquiring a new subbie eventually. He has mentioned it before in passing and was kind enough to discuss it with her, since it is waiting at least until the rest of the family is up here Master has yet to decide exactly what He wants but, He has the basics.

The one that slave is happy about is that He doesn't want her to have kids, or at least none of living at home age and that is good. Having little ones around would give slave a case of the baby fever, and w likes babies too so it could become problematic. Master also prefers heavier girls though likes variety and has this little slave to prove it *smile*. she would obviously have to be Ok with a poly lifestyle and also work within the hierarchy that Master has set up for His house.

Just a random talk about the future but it is a comfort to know such things sometimes and slave is grateful to have Master take the time to tell her things that she doesn't have to know.

Pickled fish and snuggling

These last few days off slave has been very busy, its nice to have this kinda time. slave has cleaned the house from top to bottom, made croissants, a red velvet cake and pickled a bunch of the salmon that was caught last weekend from a recipe given to her mother from an old friend. The only bad thing is that slave has the hardest time waiting for the salmon to pickle before she wants to eat it

*laugh*.

she feels the seasons here, and loves it. The days are still too hot though - in the mid 70's but the nights have begun to get that crispness that comes from the first thoughts of winter *happy sigh*. slave cant wait until next year when there will be enough room for a freezer to fill with fish and meat.

On another train of thought Master was a pleasure to snuggle with last night, slave is so privileged. she is grateful that she is allowed such things and is enjoying every minute of it, slave knows that when w gets up here that nights in Masters bed will be a rare treat. slave will be back in a cage beside His bed, chained through the bars as is her place. The next best thing after being in Masters arms, sleeping protected in something made with His bare hands.

Eventually cage number two will need to be made but for now slave gets to feel Masters powerful arms pull her into His iron embrace every night.

Fishing fun

Master took slave salmon fishing this weekend, it was wonderful slave really enjoyed herself.
It was nice to get all rain-geared up and fight the salmon into the rocks on the shore where it was easier to jump down and yank the treble hook out while they thrashed.
W/we ended up letting over half of them go because they had hit the fresh water and started to turn but many of them were still nice and silver, it was so much fun.

Not quite so busy

Master has allowed slave to quit her second job *happy dance* now she has more time to properly serve Him, and just a few weeks ago Master and slave moved to a one bedroom apartment so now T/they have more privacy. It's been very nice.

A few days ago slave came home from work and was getting ready for bed. Master was already under the covers and He told her to go to the bathroom then come to Him. When slave went to His side He asked if she had anything else left to do and she replied just ironing His shirt beside the bed. Master reached under the covers and pulled out the end of a long chain, He reached forward and clipped it to His collar.

slave was flooded with gratitude, it has been almost a year since she has been chained and her eyes filled with tears. she thanked Master and rubbed her cheek against His hand as He smiled at her, the weight of the chain pulling on her neck.

she has twelve feet to roll up in as she sleeps at night with Master holding her, it's so perfect.

Permission to play

Master allowed slave to suck His cock last night, and swallow a huge load. slave was very thankful though afterwards more riled up than ever. Master has been making slave suffer by not fucking her the past few days or so, and boy is she horny!
Silly little slave asked for permission to masturbate today and Master allowed it. He knows that she only gets even more like a bitch in heat, not less when she masturbates because nothing compares to a hot, throbbing cock *drool*

So slave, feeling a little filthy and playfully naughty today decided to blog right afterwards. she is soaked, her pussy is sensitive and her fingers keep drifting down to play. Permission to do such isn't often granted and slave is making the most of it. Though slave can already feel her arousal growing intense again she is enjoying the privilege of temporary relief and for the moment, being somewhat sated..

While slave was playing she was online looking at porn. Does A/anyone have any favorite sites to recommend?

Other than that life has been work filled still, little time with Master and most of it is when W/we are worn out. Though slave is very grateful for the moments together, she knows that fairly soon she will be sharing Masters time again and is trying to make the most of it. In all honesty she will probably see Master more when the others are here and she is not working two jobs *laugh*.

Splish splash

A quick workday update....

Master decided that He was tired of spoon sex to try to keep the bed from making so much noise. He started having sex with slave on T/their sides as He has been and after a few moments He decided that He had had enough.

Master flipped slave over onto her back easily and she suppressed a happy squeal. Master leaned in and with a growl told her that He was going to do what HE wanted to do, slave melted.
After some great sex on a loud stupid bed, Master was pounding into slave when without warning (and time to ask permission) slave squirted all over Masters cock and within moments He was splashing away and slave was laying in a puddle.

Master paused above slave and she anxiously waited to see if she was in trouble. Looking at her Master said " It's been a while since you have squirted slave, I guess you were tired of 'spoon sex' too " and laughing He laid down pulling her with Him and she happily slurped on His cock until Master shot a huge load in her mouth.... *huge happy grin*....

Falling into a half empty bag

A few days ago Master took slave to the store to buy her some new shoes, and was quite amused. He found out that slave can fit into children's shoes when He was having trouble finding her a pair that He liked in the adult section. Master had slave try on a few different pairs and teased her with the strawberry shortcake sneakers and the Disney princess light up ones. slave almost ended up with black and pink Tinkerbell sneakers, Master knows how slave dislikes pink and He loves to torture her with the threat of hot pink things.

When Master decided on the shoes (white and blue plain thank goodness) T/they finished shopping and on the way out the door Master paused by the clothespins. slave watched quietly as He considered them but couldn't help the smile that crept across her face as He tossed them in the basket with a grin.
The only time that Master has ever used them on slave was when the picture on this blog was taken so slave has been hoping to do it again.

It seems that Master has found a way around the roommates for now, last night was wonderful...

Later that night Master allowed slave to suck His cock for a little while, *sigh* slave loves Masters cock!
she took her time licking and sucking and savoring the feel of Him in her mouth and just enjoying serving Him. After a few minuets Master told slave to get His underwear that He had worn to work then straddle Him.

slave did so then eased down onto Masters cock "My, my you are a wet little slave" Master commented, slave blushed and wiggled a little. "Go slowly now slave" Master ordered, so slave started sliding along Him and closed her eyes at the feel of Master inside her.
Master grabbed her jaw a few heartbeats later and looked at her with a smile "Be quiet now slave" He ordered then stuffed His underwear into her mouth and pulled enough over her head so that she couldn't see.

her skin tingled as her senses became alive. Every nerve ending aware of the slightest touch or movement of air, every noise easily heard, the sharp nip of a clothespin finding a hold on her breast...

It was heaven.
Riding Master slowly as the sharp bites of pain grew more intense, starting to focus and just feel everything. The layers of the world around slip away as she falls...
falls into that place where it simply is.
It is nothing but the burning desire to serve mixed up with the weight on her breasts. Every clothespin beginning to throb as the individual pains start to become one. It is the hardness of Master soaked in slave's gratitude and arousal, the feel of Masters hand brush against that spot on her side. It is the tickle of her hair brushing against her lower back, the faint sheen of sweat that she gets when inflicted on, the scent of Master in the air and everything at once, pain, joy, love, devotion, trust.
slave falls into feeling.

Some time later after all the pins were placed sex had become intense and the rocking had made slaves breasts so sweetly tender. Rough, hot, Master had ordered slave to orgasm then held her against Him, painfully hard and filled her full of hot cum *swoon*.

Sweet, sticky messes. slave unthinking starts to lay down on Masters chest and stops quickly with a squeak. So He unpins her, slowly, starting at the farthest ones from slaves nipple. Agonizing how they hurt sitting in one spot for so long but it's such a sharp pain once removed, asking oneself if they are better left alone...

Now with heavy, sore breasts free of wood and metal, Master removes the underwear from slaves mouth. "Thank You Master" slave says softly with a little smile.
Master laughs "I love your tortured smile" He says "it's like you are in agony and you hate it but you can't help it you just have to smile".

He tells her that He put all 5o on and slave is surprised that Master got so many on her little tits, but pleased of course, she is a little glad that they aren't bigger because they feel quite large at the moment.
slave gathers the clothespins and places them in a gallon Ziploc until she can find a more permanent home and looks at the bag, considering. "There is that smile again" Chuckling Master pulls her to Him and slave snuggles in. Thinking about everything that just happened and how she will think of this every time she sees the pins. A bag that carries a alternate reality, a half empty bag that she can fall into, fall into that place...

Wait, a half empty bag?!

slave bought more pins today to fill it up. *devious grin*

The yucky mole

About 3 months ago when there was no computer....

slave had this kinda mole skin tag thing on her side that she really hated, it was ugly and uncomfortable. Master said it didn't really matter to Him one way or the other so slave asked Him to cut it off, Master replied that He probably would when He wanted to.

Over the course of about two years slave inquired about it a time or two and Master always replied that He would when He was ready. slave was eager to be rid of it but also nervous and excited thinking about Master doing it too.

On a day off when Master and slave slept in a little bit Master started moving around and slave stretched, waking up together. Master was bright eyed and bushy tailed while slave was a little slower shaking off her sleep.
"Hand Me My knife slave" Master ordered "yes Master" she replied sliding out of bed as her mind fumbled to focus. Handing Master His knife slave crawled back under the covers, hiding from the chill Alaskan morning.

"Face Me and bare your side" He said and slave pushed the covers down to her waist while Master sat up. Flicking the hunting blade open Master leaned in and slave realized what was on His mind.
slave felt a quick jolt of fear through her mind, banishing the last remnants of sleep as Master grabbed the mole and laid the knife against her skin.

Images of Master sharpening the knife for hours yesterday flash through her mind. Last week Master used the same knife to skin a rabbit and slave has mental images of it sliding through the fur easily as she hears the sound of steel on steel ringing in her ears.

slave lets out a squeal as Master slides the cold blade through her flesh, just a small cut on one side of the mole. "Hold still slave" Master reminds as she squirms a little so slave holds her breath and quits moving.

Biting pain as Master starts at the cut side and slowly, agonizingly slowly cuts part of a circle along the bottom. "Please may slave have a moment Master?" she asks "waking up this way has made her a little nauseous Sir" slave says as she argues mentally with her tummy.

Master has of course planned it this way, slave has a high pain tolerance and is turned on by knives and cold metal so this would usually make her all wet and squishy.
Master grins His devious grin as He starts again, telling slave that 'yes He must go that slow so that He can make sure He doesn't cut off too much skin and make a scar' as she fights squeals and squirms.

It bleeds a lot for such a little pinhole though it does pull open to about the size of a dime.
Master holds a clean rag to slaves side and holds her against Him lovingly. slave thanks Master as she relaxes into His protective embrace happily.

Master cleans her up thoroughly and T/they start the day as usual, slave making breakfast with a few stops from Master so He can dab the blood off of her side *smile*

Now if only that wasn't so long ago....

Reading

slave just finished reading the blog "a view from the floor" the entry called "spirals", wow.
It's so amazing how sometimes you cannot express the emotions within you and then BAM!
Randomly reading a blog in your favorites someone quite eloquently puts down exactly the emotions and feelings raging within you.

Don't get the wrong impression for this slave is very happy, she just hadn't felt the depth of the need for pain until she stopped ignoring/suppressing it momentarily as she read of another's struggle, same story the lack of opportunity.

So, slave will start ignoring it as best as she can until the neighbors go out or something...

Computer access *happy dance*

Master has gotten Himself a laptop! slave loves it when He buys Himself things because slave wants Master to have everything and the allowance she gets for His birthday and Christmas never seems like enough *grin*.
Another benefit though is now slave can write more often, on her days off at least when slave has completed all assigned tasks. It will be nice to share and talk with others regularly.

Alaska is everything slave remembered. Yesterday she was driving home after taking Master to work and there was a humpback whale swimming right next to the road. slave pulled over and watched him surface a few times before continuing on her way *happy sigh*. Also, she gets to eat everything! Master laughs when T/they go into the woods and slave starts munching on various plants and collecting tidbits to take home. slave cooked Master some fiddlehead ferns in garlic butter and He said they had a nice crisp, green flavor. The time not working and getting to enjoy Masters company is nice.

slave asked Master if He wished to inflict on her soon and Master grinned and told her that if she hadn't become so loud then He would have done so already *blush*.
T/they talked about going out into the woods and doing it there, plenty of privacy and a turn on as well. Alas! Without the guns (still in Florida) the risk of attracting a bear is too great, cries are a huge no-no because it sounds too much like a hurt animal. So there is a lot of thought going into that scene about how to make it work without attracting hungry animals that will need to be scared off at the very least. Perhaps when hunting season rolls around slave will helpfully volunteer to be bait and an extra pair of hands *laugh*
she just misses having pokeables and ouchie spots when she moves during the day, it seems like it's been forever *frown*. Master did try last week and chewed on her while they were having sex. Damn slaves inability to keep quiet! *fuming at herself a little*

Overall things are going well though and slave loves it here, it's also perfect for the family because it's far enough south that the weather is a lot milder than where slave is from. Things are falling into place slowly but surely.

A good day off

slave had a great day off on Wednesday! Master bought some bourbon and T/they just relaxed and hung out together, He even allowed her a few cigarettes with Him. Master and slave had a interesting talk about some of T/their darker tendencies, it's neat just how closely matched T/they really are.
Master always gets really horny after a few drinks and slave LOVES it. T/they had sex for quite a while, hot, sweaty, amazing sex. slave has no idea how long it was but, it was well into daylight before Master came *huge grin*.

The way the working and having roommates has been Master hasn't had time or opportunity to beat slave lately though and that has been a little hard for her, the lack of pain...
Things are calming down now and with a bit more routine becoming established in the new situation more formality is returning. Not that it ever really left just, became a little more casual with the lack of stability.

The rest of slave's post just got deleted when the computer froze *frustrated grimace* she will write more later if she can.

Master has allowed slave to wear His locking collar again *relieved sigh*. slave has had a few grouchy moments here and there and had to be disciplined. It's been a little hard with the lack of routine and both new jobs and trying to get moved into the temporary place. The summertime will see the hunt for the large house and the family being together again.

For the moment though slave is lucky to have so much time with Master. He says that she is spoiled *smile* Master does take great care of His things.

Master wishes to watch Dexter now....

Working... and working.... :)

slave finally has access to a computer again for the moment. Until this summer when the rest of the household gets here (and all the stuff) it will still be a little sporadic.

Since Master has been here slave has been much happier, and everything just seems to work so much better. slave has greatly enjoyed these past few months with Him.

Right now slave is working like crazy to get money for the move saved so, all the fun things are squeezed in between eating and sleeping *grin*. Lots of doubles at the jobs but, it's all for the better.